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[Monday January 8th, 2007] [ mood | pessimistic ] you are slipping through my fingers faster than water. the funny thing is, as much as i wish i could, i'm not fighting it. you can live your life however you want now. i guess the term 'best friend' was used a little too loosely in this case. it worked out for a while, but seeing you not care about things is really starting to make me not care either. let's face it, it was bound to happen eventually. groups of 3 never work, as i discovered. and now i know how someone felt when i was a bitch to them, i didn't realize how hurtful i was then, but i do now because the same fucking thing is happening to me. the difference: i'm not going to fight it like you did, and give people second chances and think that they'll change. when people make a decision to change, they never go back to the way they were before. i know because i have changed so much, and now that i have i never even think about going back to the person i used to be. so now that you've changed and decided i am not good enough for you, i'll move on. i'm learning that's the best way to handle problems in my world. just forget like i ever knew the person and move on with my life. if i can do it with a friend i've known since i was 3, it should be pretty easy with someone i've known since i was 13. so fuck you and your hurtful bullshit. i'm not making myself look stupid anymore. i'm going to be strong for once and care about myself and my feelings. no comments.

life [Monday December 18th, 2006] [ mood | blah ] [ music | free bird (HA HA) ] has been really confusing me. seems like everything i put in comes back as shit. i'm sick of being used i'm sick of being lied to i'm sick of being left out i'm sick of being alone i'm sick of being awkward i'm sick of being clueless i'm sick of being me. and i'm really sick of people that can destroy my spirit over and over and i am left looking stupid because i let it happen. i feel like every emotion i have has been over-exhausted and wasted on something so meaningless. i wish now i could go back to one year ago and tell myself everything would turn into this nightmare of lies and broken hearted-ness by asking someone something so innocent and simple then. things would be so much better now. so enough of my depressive ranting bullshit. 2006 started well, had a shitty middle, and a pretty shitty ending. hopefully 2007 will turn out much better since i am jaded wiser. #@X♥!

you can't swim in a town this shallow, you'll most assuredly drown tomorrow. [Friday October 20th, 2006] [ music | dcfc ] i don't live in the past anymore. i hate the present, so i guess all that leaves is the future. i need to start learning lessons from my mistakes, or i'm going to continue to go nowhere. too bad that i am the most naive person i know. i give people more chances than i should, and then it blows up in my face worse than it did the first time. i wish i still thought i knew everything. #@X♥!

AHHHH. [Sunday October 24th, 2004] [ mood | terrified ] [ music | DUDE YR SO CRAZY // le tigre ] add to be added; results may vary. ♥

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